Revenge of the Crazy

Yesterday was the semi-annual “Reevaluate the Crazy Pills” appointment.  I knew what was coming; I’m not surprised by it, just pissed off.  We upped the dosage on one of them, added another one for the panic attacks (which is probably a very good thing).  The only problem…I am a complete fucking basket case right now.

 

This happens every time my meds get adjusted.  It takes a couple of days for my body to get used to them and those couple of days….sheer hell is the only way to describe it.  I shake, my pupils are dilated, and I have cornea searing headaches and tend to throw up for no reason.  I can’t fucking concentrate on anything and if you tell me something, I will completely forget it in about 3.07 seconds and my brain feels like it’s shrinking.  Basically I run around looking like a heroin addict.

 

I just spent 20 minutes trying to remember how to put together a report that I do EVERY SINGLE WEEK, but because my brain is totally out of whack right now, I could not, for the life of me get this report to come out correctly.  Usually it takes me 15-20 minutes to do…today it took me an hour and a half.

 

Thank god my boss is on vacation and I can pretty much just close my office door and hide for most of the day.  Now, let us all cross our fingers that I don’t completely loose my shit while I’m getting used to this stuff.  I’m sure I’ll be fine by Monday, but holy hell I would kill for normal brain chemistry right now.